Words are of advice needed
I’m struggling with life right now. My partner is currently OTR because that’s all he can get at the moment. It has been hard on me being that I still have work and 3 little ones to take care of. We got into a fight over something small and escalated into something else and now removed me from everything and I can’t contact him. I had told him I’ve been cry almost everyday because it’s so much on my plate and I don’t have no one to talk to or socialize with. I also been struggling at the fact my mother isn’t involved with my life nor cares about the things I trying to do and I just asked if she could attend my graduation and refused the invite. I just feel neglected at this point and trying to heal but it just seems impossible. I feel like this is my breaking point and reality is settling in that it might just me and my kids. I guess I’m crazy now because all I do is cry. I also on the verge of losing my job because I don’t have adequate childcare. My life is just a mess and I’m just praying for better days. Any suggestions on books to read to motivational speakers to uplift me during this time. I have been to therapy but my insurance no longer covers it.
I feel for you so hard. It takes a whole village to raise three kids, and you are being abandoned left and right. 💔 It feels hard because it is hard. Cry if you need to, but get the care you need to keep your job. Try to get your work schedule regular and really weigh daycare vs. in-home care. Your oldest will be school-aged soon. Think about your budget as a 3-5 year plan. There are going to be times when the budget doesn't add up, but do what you can and supplement your kids with time and love. You are only one person. You can't do it all, it's a rigged game. But, the kids won't remember the struggle, they'll remember the love. You are not crazy, you're just trying to do the impossible. Imagine yourself 10 years from now with a better job and kids that are mostly self-sufficient, and try to take the next step on the road to there. You'll get there, but you're going to have to walk on some broken glass to do it. Much love on your journey. ❤️