I never wanted to be a single mum is wanted to find a man and spend the rest of our lives together to have kids. Then i got pregnant too early in a new relationship but didn't feel like i could part with my little one and was reassured that he was in it for the long haul and wanted this life for life. So I didn't have to do pregnancy alone but 7 weeks postpartum I found out he had been cheating on me the whole last year, the whole time I'd known him. His sister then outed him for lies about kids he had said weren't his, travels than never happened and that he hadn't been born overseas like he said. Everything he'd ever told me was a lie and I started to e the manipulations he'd pulled me through too. It was ended instantly. I was terrified to be a single mum and had no clue how I was going to do it. I've been lucky in the way of having help from my mum. Its hard sometimes money is tight and I almost never get a break unless I go to my parents and ask to pass her to one of them for a bit.
BUT at the same time we have the most incredible bond and I love her so so much. I am thankful every day that this is where life has led me. I was made to be her mum and love her with everything in me. We're currently laid having a cuddle after a morning feed. Some things are hard but we make it all work and she has become the best part of my life. I know if I'd have gone through everything while still being pregnant I'd have felt like you're describing but just know its a beauty beginning not the end and there is still plenty of chance for that someone to love you to walk into you're life but you're also about to feel all the love from this little human you're building. The way your baby looks at you with love is a magical feeling 🥰 Sorry for the long response but I just thought I'd tell my story and how happy I have ended up and am with my now 6.5 month old. It isn't the end and you can do this 🩷
Pregnancy is so hard, especially because of all the hormones. Once the baby is here, you won't care about anyone or anything else. That little person will be your everything. You will also have the chance to make new friends with mums at baby groups in your area. The health visitor should give you a list of all the groups you can attend. The right person will come along eventually, and that 'right person' will be someone who accepts and loves you and your child, and treats them as their own ❤️
Literally in the same boat. Although im 11 weeks….thinking of other options because im so sad