Toxic Marriage with an Autistic Person

i’m not entirely in the same position but i can relate with the toxicity within the relationship especially while pregnant. I hate that you feel this way mamá, i know it’s taking a toll on your mental but if you’ve already told him multiple times how you feel & he’s not receiving the emotion….you have to put yourself & your kids first…i know it’s not easy to walk away from a marriage & that’s not always the first option (counseling, taking a break from each other, etc) but take it step by step..& please pray about it. The one thing that always amazes me is God will show you when something is impacting your life negatively even when you don’t see it. You’re experiencing the discernment but you gotta listen to it & your intuition. don’t stay anywhere that’s going to make you hurt in the long run, you don’t need it. this may not be much help but i’m praying for you & I hope whatever decision you make, you’re proud of it! stay strong & try not to stress, your babies need you 🩵😙

It is I have literally lost myself. I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I’m not the person that I had changed to be when I first met him. Now I have took 20 steps back to the person that I was when I was in my teens and my early 20s. My mental health and my emotional health has completely went down the drain. I’ve had postpartum depression for a while now and I’m always stressed and with a lot of pain and anger. It’s definitely not easy to walk away. I’ve always had bad relationships and I got married and now this one is going to fail as well it hurts so much… I prayed about it, but maybe not as often or as hard as I should I feel like God has forgotten about me, and I have been feeling disconnected.. I’ve asked him before to please help me with my marriage can my marriage change I’ve asked him to change my husband but I don’t think any of my prayers have been answered. I appreciate you so much for your comment. It really means a lot to me and I needed it thank you so much…

But yes, I’m definitely trying to hang in there and trying to find a path way to a stress-free life and healing from my pain anger and depression

I understand that disconnected feeling all too well. It felt as if my cries weren’t being heard & I was just an emotional wreck for no reason, like this spirit was on me that I couldn’t shake to save my life. Did your relationships have a gap in between or back to back? that could also be another reason why because you haven’t had time to focus on what you want & your aspirations. I pray you find yourself & understand that you’re worth a lot more than you think. Value yourself in the long run, be selfish & let that man know he can’t hold any more power over you. It’ll get better, if you need anything or need to vent I am happy to lend an ear!

@Lana That’s exactly how I feel like I’m not being heard and my emotions and needs in this marriage are just being dismissed 😭…Me and my husband married too fast…I had just got out of a relationship that broke me not very long at all before we met and got married so yea… Im trying to do just that just focus on me and the kids right now I’m tired of a lot of things and at this point I have to give it all to God to sort it out for me and help me… I really appreciate it thank you for listening to me at least and responding…