I just want to give birth😩

Honestly the thought of vaginal birth is a relief for me rn. I just want to push him out now and get him out of my pelvis. I’ve had PGP/SPD since 14 weeks and I’m sick of crying over it. Never had pain like it, seriously it feels like my pelvis is actually broken. The sad thing is for me when I gave birth to my daughter last time, I still had mild/moderate PGP all the way up to when she was 10 months old - then fell pregnant again. (Stupid really, my poor body didn’t get chance to recover) I think my body is not built for carrying children, it’s too much. This 2nd baby is most definitely my last, I feel depressed with the constant pain😔