Thanks I needed this advice
I was a child of a dad in the reserves, he loved it but it was very hard on our family because he was fulltime medical plus the 2 weekends a month two weeks a year. But I will say, it brought him great joy, he would have done it full time but I’m one of 3 kids and it was too much for my family to handle. He almost got sent to Iran so that’s the only bad part. It depends what your role is.
I'm a stay at home mom and I'm trying to find work as well. I'm trying to find a hospital or a government official job. These jobs have a lot of benefits for there employees. My mom works in a hospital and I was able to go to a sleep a way camp and tutor support with no payment at all.
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I would never judge a mom at all but i think you should wait until your baby is 1 yo 5 months is a little too soon remember babies grow fast! You will feel like you missed the baby stage