Am i in the wrong long post!

Please tell me is this okay! So i have two children with my (partner) have been together 4 years any way he has done enough stuff wrong that i would of been long gone if i didnt have my babies and no where for us to live. so I don’t work because my children are under two and no childcare i get like 700 a month UC and he earns around 1500 after tax doesnt pay rent or for his van or for petrol also does his own jobs so earns good money i pay towards bills and pay for everything the children have anyway he also had (has) a gambling issue says he doesn’t now but… anyway he asked me who doesn’t get much to lend 320 so i gave it him with him thinking that is all i had so every penny luckily i have learnt to say i have less then i do. For the past week i have asked for this money every day and had 50 sent today i have epilepsy and i am struggling at the moment never stopping no me time he works but gets to do what he wants he cooks tea thats it we have needed a food shop for ages now i don’t drive have a double pram he has a big van anyway today he said he was finishing early so i thought oh great can get a food shop done and i can maybe have some help. we get back he goes upstairs and comes down with his golf stuff so i said your not going golf are you and he’s like yeah when do i get to play bare in mind he played all day last Friday (for work) he’s a electrician and then is playing Friday again instead of work but apparently thats not the same because he is playing during work 🙃 so I obviously got upset because in the 2 years since my first was born i have had me time around 3 times to get hair done and go cinema once when it was just my son and i also had his mum have them because he never watches them anyway so i got upset because i am so stressed I feel drained all the time and we had no food shop and i said how he can’t even send me the money he owes me then i get oh i am nagging him over money and all that yet he said he would pay me back and said oh i do nothing and get UC its a joint claim so i would get more without him he then sends me all the money he owed me which is funny because he didn’t have it a few hours before but did now 🙃 i was already crying at this point and he said get a fu….. shop with that as well and then said other stuff I didn’t bother to argue because it triggers me epilepsy he then still went a played golf so i walked 30 min to the shop and got what i could with what i could fit under pram and carry and still got home late and he wasn’t back so i did that and bed time as always he texted at 8 saying do we need anything after leaving me crying to go golf so I didn’t reply anyway he has just come up which disturbed the children and said what did you get from shop i said can’t remember and he said oh have you put it away i said no what’s it matter to you I didn’t get you anything and then he had a go at me saying i am selfish and all this then stormed off like i am crazy?