Going back to work

I’ve just made the decision to go back in April so it’s still 5 months away but I’m already dreading it. My LO will be 9 months which is still so young and I’m feeling so anxious about being apart from her. Not sure how I’m going to do it

This is my second maternity leave and I feel like it’s flying in waaaayyyy faster than my first. I am dreading the thought of having to leave him. I still remember how hard the first few months were having to leave my first son every day. I literally counted the minutes until it was time to pick him up. I’m a primary school teacher and I’m actually considering becoming a registered childminder so that I can stay at home with my boys until they start primary school.

I can't stand the thought of returning to work. If I didnt have any children I would not be returning to this job and would of just found something else. When you have kids you then need to think about how the job your in is going to benefit them. Such as finishing times and distance. I have decided to return and continue to work for 3 months then I'll be looking for another job while there.

I know it's so hard just to think about it. I feel so guilty about it.y eyes are full of tears just to think to come back and my heart breaks. I never thought I could feel in that way.

I don’t go back till June which is still a while away but I’m nervous just thinking about it. I’m not doing any KIT days till next year