Meal time dread

My little one is 9 months and for the past month or so every mealtime has been a horror! Baby absolutely screams, cries, gags and vomits. Thrashes around to get away from food. I’ve tried feeding in high chair, floor seat, no seat and on my lap by no difference. I started out with blw and little one took no interest in the food and sobbed non stop. We were advised to try spoon feeding and took to this well. Little one was on 3 meals a day with snacks and breastfed a handful of times mainly around nap times and bed. Solids gave respite as it allowed me some freedom with baby not being attached to the breast every 1-2 hours and refuses bottles. Now baby screams through every meal time. I’ve tried meals that I know were previously liked and those end up the same way. I retried blw and still screams and sobs through meals. Please help with any suggestions. I’m so upset with myself about how tonight’s dinner has gone as I’ve raised my voice with a stern tone (I am absolutely not proud of myself for this at all). My husband was around and he’s taken baby for a bath ready for bed and not offered any other help or solution. I’ll end up being the one awake constantly through the night when baby wakes up 50 times overnight because we haven’t had any solids tonight. Doesn’t appear to be teething so I have no idea what’s suddenly changed in the past month. I dread every single mealtime now and trying not to have this feeling around my child. Any help would be highly highly appreciated as I’m totally at the end of my tether.