4 months pp is still very fresh, it’s been 7 for me and I still find it hard to find myself again. It’s a whole new world it’s okay to grieve the one you had prior
I had a REALLY hard time with my first. We didnt really bond until 5/6 monthd old. Why? I couldnt tell you.. but i felt so guilty.
NOTHING wrong with you. Of course you love your baby, and please don't doubt you are doing a wonderful job. It is Haaard to enjoy that first year, so PLEASE don't feel bad/guilty 🙏, but it definitely gets better Mumma!! I honestly know💛
The first year is super hard. I felt like this sometimes too. Now my daughter is 22 months and there is so much more fun, and also more breaks. It gets better, just needs some more time!