Am I the worst mom to exist ?!!

No judging please. I already feel so bad and guilty for even saying this. I am a big believer in "speaking it into existence" but honestly I said this more out of spite to my husband but didn't think about how it could affect my reality and I can't stop thinking about it and I feel so guilty.   Story:   So this week we have been working on training my 3 yo daughther to sleep in her room through the night, along with establishing a routine again since we had been on holiday vacatio and it was all out of wack. She is great at going to sleep in her room but always gets up at 1-2am crying to come to our bed. So in order to stop this we said we would take turns getting up to go to her room comfort her untill she falls back asleep and come back to our bed, this has been working so far. So Monday, I got up, Tuesday he got up, Wednesday I got up, and then last night, as she was crying I noticed he didnt get up so I nudged him to go and he tells me "go, go, ill go if she wakes again or tomorrow. " So I get up annoyed and as I am walking away from the bed to my daugthers room I tell him something along the lines like, I dont remember my exact words but I said something like "Your going to regret, if one day she doesnt wake up anymore". Honestly I think I meant to say like "oh when she stops needing us, or when she gets older and doesnt want to sleep with us... etc". Anyways, I am so scared now, what if i spoke this into existence, It is eating at my brain, I am at work and I cant even focus because I cant stop thinking about it. I am already an extremely anxious person and I create thsi unnecessary scenarios in my head.     Ughhh, can someone please help me. Has this ever happend to you? Am I a horrible mom?!