Birthday Blues

One more month till my little boy turns 1….. as if that isn’t hard enough I am also fighting with my family. Now that I’m sitting down trying to make a guest list it’s just making me even more upset as I hardly have anyone to invite. I’m a SAHM and I don’t get out much, before I didn’t work in a job that has coworkers that are around my age, I still go to my parents church so there definitely isn’t a young crowd there, I’ve been on this app for over a year and still feel like I’m having a hard time keeping conversations and building connections. I know he won’t remember his 1st birthday but I hate the reminder that there’s hardly anyone who’s there for me and now hardly anyone who’s there for my son 😔 My husband is very supportive and present with our son but he’s gone 13 hours a day at work and his family is out of state ( although they aren’t my biggest fans)