Struggling

It makes sense to feel that way 💕 he relies on you so much and when we don’t fill our own cups, it can be exhausting to always pour into someone else’s. I keep reminding myself that “All he has known is my love and support so of course he wants me to be nearby!”

I’ve thought about running away far too many times in the last week than I ever did when I wanted to kill myself as a pre teen so I get it For me it’s just the constant touching and having to be up my ass. I can’t get breakfast cleaned up and it irks my soul. I try to do laundry and he’s bothering my husband’s 100 yr old grandmother who lives with us now I can’t even pee alone. It’s a season and it will pass but I literally don’t want to be a Mom anymore. It’s too much with taking care of a toddler and 100 yr old woman and a dog. Then add my horny husband who is more annoying than all of it

I have a premie who’s been in the NiCU so I’ve seen him have a hard time with him hooked to machinery.Ive been getting agitated 😠 with him waking up at 1am-4am.Crying even though I’ve done the routine changing,feeding burping and rocking him he’s still been crying.Luckily I’ve had my family step in a few times.Ive surprised myself with how irritated I’ve felt too.I think it’s a bit normal but getting over the hurdle I have not conquered yet.

Also I think sometimes people only post a portion of their lives because I post nothing but good things to help being the positive in my life. Deep down behind closed doors I do struggle with my 2.5 son and trying different things to see what works to help get over each hurdle. I actually didn’t want to be a mom so at some point I did feel these emotions and remember this time will pass, try to enjoy it cause before we know it they will be doing a lot on their own and not need us so much. Your doing ur best and keep it up, be proud of the effort your doing. Try to find time for urself even if it’s his nap time and put the cleaning aside and decompress. Practice with him that your going to get water and he’s a becoming a big boy and he can stay there for a few mins till u come back, maybe a timer that he can see. So I’ve been trying to get him to being OK & eventually get over it. So maybe you can just try little by little have him in there for 5 mins then slowly increase

I struggle with these feelings too. My son is two and on top of me. I get agitated at the amount of times of have to say the same thing, over and over. But then I have to remind myself, he’s a new little person who has no idea. I also have to give myself grace for getting agitated because it’s ALOT. I will say this to you mom, trust you are doing your best, give yourself some grace and try to practice a little self care. Rather it be taking a bath while your baby is asleep, taking a walk, using your village. Try to do something for you every day. although my son’s sleep schedule is horrible and he just won’t let up. I put him in his crib with a couple of toys, zip up the crib canopy and I take a break to decompress. I go on the balcony with a cup of coffee and take ten min to breathe and talk to God, this really helps me. If you don’t have a community, look into your local ymca. Some ymcas offer two hour child watch, while you can go take a breather or do some yoga.