Are you me? So much of what you said resonates with me or are things I experienced too. The severe PPD, not dealing with nights well, sahm, not really being around kids prior to having my daughter, the seasonal depression and having your baby right when you're going into the winter months. It was all so brutal...but guess what? We made it! I feel like with kids, most good parents don't know how they're going to survive before they're in it but then they are and they figure it out. Maybe you could make a list of things that would have supported you when you struggled with your first. Then you can try to get things in place while you're pregnant to try and prevent things from getting quite so bad as they were. At least, that's what I have been working on for when we have another. Good luck lady, this random internet mama believes in you!
I was in the same boat. My recommendation prepare early speak to your gp they can get you to the right people and even look at medication. I thought I’ll be fine the week before I gave birth but hit but after was no where ss bad as first think I have ptsd because don’t want to go back there but I recommend seeking now xx
Girl, this is a hard one! My husband wants another and my in laws and so many people ask if we want another one and I’m like 1000% No because of PPD/PPA and I disliked every experience of being pregnant, birth and this ugly journey now. If you have the support you need, I think you will be fine!
You have probably done alot of work since your first! You may need to get a little help with medication if you are feeling super down. Having 2 isn't half as hard as the transition with your first. You are already doing all the kid stuff now your just bringing another along for the ride. Make it work for you momma!