Overwhelmed

Im sat here absolutely balling my eyes out, my emotions have been crazy lately but I feel so fed up. Im 27 weeks and 5 days pregnant and I am struggling so much now. I wasn’t before but now I just went from a high to a really low. I cant cope, Im so overwhelmed. The closer it gets to giving birth to more I just feel so unprepared and not ready at all. I feel so lonely I cant stand it anymore. My partner leaves me to go to the pub every time I have a shit day and I feel like I have been sitting and dealing in silence and on my own. Im so fed up with him at the moment I feel no support from him at all and it’s making this so much harder. Baby wasn’t moving today or yesterday went into triage and nothing from him. I am always sat here crying my eyes out in bed on my own waiting for him to come home and it’s like he never does and he isn’t even in the right state for anything. I feel it’s going to be the same when baby is born and I am going to feel so alone, so overwhelmed I am already feeling it. I don’t want to feel estranged from my baby. Ive had enough. Im losing myself. Im really struggling right now. I feel like all the pressure is on me to do everything for our baby as well make sure he has everything, buying everything, getting everything ready, washing clothes EVERYTHING. I am so lost and lonely and fed up. Ive had the conversation with him so many times nothing is changing and he thinks I am wrong for telling him I don’t feel he is going to support me. Please help me.