unemployed and fed tf up

my bd always goes on about how valuable he is. but this lame can’t even come get his child for an hour so I can get to a job interview. was ranting to him bout how I’m so stressed cause I’m sick as hell and I’ve been unemployed for months. I had 3 job interviews lined up for this week. of course I missed every one cause he won’t be on top of getting his child no matter how many times I ask and he acts like he’s gonna do it. he hasn’t had her in like 3 months. and sure, he’s around all the time. and he buys shit. but I just want a few days to be able to run some errands and do important shit. I’ve been blind for months cause I can’t even get to the eye doctor. it’s ridiculous to me. then he talks shit bout how I don’t go outside. 😂😂😂😂 🔪🔪🔪🔪 he doesn’t work so it’s no excuse. and he’s never filled out a job app or made a resume I do it all for him!!! out of kindness!! and you can’t even support me trying to get a job when I’m writing you cover letters every other day. IM PISSED honestly then to top it off he’s such a narcissist with this inflated ego thinking he’s so “valuable” and I just don’t do shit for him. fuck outta here