I’m afraid to be alone
I don’t love my partner and I don’t think I have since he cheated on me while pregnant. I want to say I hate him bc I feel like I do sometimes. I’m always respectful to him whether we’re happy or arguing but can't say the same for him. He's done so much damage and I've let him continue stepping over me bci think I love him? He was great for the first year of my son's life. But after that I feel like he's changed. He went to the strip club the other day and I already have boundaries about him not going to swim parties yet he somehow didn't correlate the two events being the same. Tried talking to him but he was disrespectful, meaningless apology, and manipulative and just controlled the discussion and how it made me feel. He's a good Dad but a terrible partner. I'm just scared to be alone and he knows I won't leave. I want real love, someone who truly cares and listens. I hate my life sometimes.
Hi love, I know the thought of being alone is scary, but would you rather be miserable for the rest of your life? He can still be a good dad if you’re together or not, you can work something out between you. You deserve so much more than this and it’s about time you realise that you need to do what’s best for you. In the long run, your son will start to figure the pair of you out; what type of people, parents and partners you are. Do you really want him to see you hurting this way? You deserve to be happy and your partner needs to realise that you’re not to be walked all over. You can do this if you really want it, you’re stronger than you think you are. My inbox is always open❤️