I hate being a mum right now

It sounds like you have PPD. You should seek out therapy and ask for more support from family and friends :)

@Kassia I’m already on anti depressants 😭 thought that would stop ppd! I’ve spoken to my boyfriend 1000 times about more help and support, and just recently told him he has one more chance to help, but its not much different yet

Anti depressants take weeks-months to start working (if they’re being taken consistently) 😢 Do you have anyone else to help you? I hate (a lot of) men for this reason!! Useless Anyone would feel stressed and overwhelmed if they had to look after two small children 24/7 and take care of the house and cook

@Kassia I’ve been on them for many years now! Yeah I’m over the male race! They don’t know how to help, no matter how much I put it out there, his parents do help when they can! I unfortunately don’t have any family besides my mum who is in a different state to me

You’ve taken them throughout pregnancy? If you’re not breastfeeding, then maybe try microdosing psilocybin. It really helped me, before pregnancy. I wouldn’t say they don’t know. I think they just don’t want to put forth the effort, knowing you will do everything by default.

@Kassia yeah I went off them during first pregnancy which was a huge mistake and was told to continue with this last baby, not breast feeding, Yes you’re so right… if he doesn’t do something of course I will cause it needs to be done 🙄

@Kassia what is psilocybin?

Maybe they’re no longer helping you enough, then 😫 Exactly! Sometimes you just gotta wait it out and then shift the expectation. 😒 Or leave them LOL

It is shrooms 🤣 But, when taken in a low dose, every 4 days, it does not cause any kind of hallucinations or anything like that. It helps heighten mood and motivation and emotional processing. I did some research on it, a while back and saw that the Swedes were doing research on it. I decided to try it, as I have had terrible depression for over a decade and anxiety my entire life. I used to live in NC and it is legal in DC, so I went there to buy some (chocolate form) and took a very small dose once every 4 days. It only lasts for around 6hrs (the effects) and promotes an overall better mood for the days after. I would not recommend buying it illegally, as people lace it with stuff. But, yeah, it really helped me! I still feel better, over 2yrs later.