I know how you feel, yesterday I was at a breaking point because it’s so hard. Hang in there. Are you in any therapy? Do you get time to read or go to the gym while they are in school? Any local support groups? I would recommend having something for yourself outside the kids even if it’s just for 2 hours a day.
You are not alone. I'm proud of you for knowing you want more out of life and it's normal to envy others when life feels like a constant battles you face. Try connecting to groups for people with sex children it helps to hear your not the only one struggling or facing the issues you have. It's not talked about enough to be normalised but trust me there are days we all feel to scream, run or just escape but life would never be the same with our our children. If you ever want someone to listen or just feel for a chat message me, hope today is a brighter day Hun xoxo
Hang in there 😥 I feel the same but just gotta remember we r worth it. We will come out of this hugsss