Motherhood can be hard and lonely! But just remember you’re doing your best and it’s ok to have bad days, I can understand it’s tough without support and sometimes you just need a break! If you can try to go on play dates, baby sensory classes? so you’re not always alone with your daughter, and catch ups. X
I would recommend going to baby groups, they made such a difference when I was on maternity leave and most of the time alone with my baby. I met lovely mums and many in the same situation
I also know exactly how you feel, as I'm in the very same situation. I'm 95% of the time (if not more) alone with my little one. Have no family whatsoever where I live, friends do have some but all seem to be always very busy to meet up and my baby's daddy work really long hours and many times no day off. So in fact we spend some time together as a family in the morning when we wake up, we could stay like foe up to an hour in bed (on the good days, sometimes he has to get up and go) and that's it, then all day long I'm alone with the little one and my boyfriend comes back home at around 23h, at which time the LO is obviously already sleeping. I get to have dinner with my boyfriend as I wait for him to come back in lrder to eat together and that's pretty much it, then we go to bed because we're both exhausted. My boy is 11 months and a half old and I've never been away from him since he was born. No time for me time as obvious.
I feel you, my husband work long hour and just start to work on the weekend too, and I have no one where I live, It very busy with little one but there have small time on and off to feel lost and lonely but not enough to do anything cuz soon my baby gonna wake, he gonna eat, house need to be clean etc. We try to spends morning together but it super short time since he have to go to work And I wait up to have little chat with him before bedtime and that pretty much it It not easy lot of feeling to deal with
I have a couple of single mums that coparent or even married mum friends that don’t have any outside family…they rely on me and call me a lot, we go out a lot w the kids and without kids at night. Look for a friend that you can call a sister that you can do life with, spend time w when the Hubby is away working. Half my village is biological and half is friends I’ve picked up along the way- Hubby doesn’t have siblings but he does have 3 besties. Take your baby out- mothers groups and baby groups at least then you’re not lonely even if you’re not there w anyone it doesn’t feel alone all the time, you’re around people.
I know how you feel. Try to meet up with people you match with on here and also try bumble bff