Really want two babies but struggling with the thought of doing all this again

I feel this way! I've always wanted more than one and when we were discussing kids we decided we'd like to have 2 if possible. I waited a long time to have a baby and I do genuinely love being a mum but it's definitely much harder than I ever thought it would be and some periods have been a real struggle. I am an older mum (40 this year) so I know I'm potentially "running out of time" if we want to try for another but I go between thinking we can/can't do this 🥴 xx

@Laura exactly its so hard because it’s not like I don’t absolutely love having our baby it’s just pregnancy and the new born stage practically broke me. I think I was supposed to give birth to 4year olds! It’s come up for me as Christmas reminds me of why I’d want a bigger family and we’ve been chatting about it.

Obviously I knew I was totally responsible for this wee bundle but almost everything around babies is so vague because they are all different. I have a decent group of friends around me but it's still lonely at times - probably don't help myself either as I struggle asking for help too. Some days I've definitely thought I wasn't cut out for it, even though my own family is all I've ever wanted, and then she'll flash me a cheeky smile or tell me a story and my heart melts 😅😍 x

Oh my gosh, I totally can relate. A family is all I’ve ever wanted and I was the last to finally have a baby out of all my friends. Sometimes I wonder if that had something to do with why I struggle now. Maybe I waited too long and I was too set in my ways. But the old me reminds myself how I longed to have what my friend had which was a family, I was so desperate to join the mummy group I just didn’t meet the right guy till later. But now it’s taking some serious adjusting.

I could literally have written the same thing. How strange that our stories are so similar in that respect...🤗 I was saying the same to my husband a few weeks ago about how I might be too stuck in my ways now. I get more frustrated with me than I do my daughter - I just don't know how to not be yet x

When my son was born, I said no more. We also went through some health issues with our first one. He broke me in ways I never thought was possible...Textbook child, he was not. When he turned 1.5 is around when I started therapy. I saw the bright side of his strong personality and man, he is clever and has a sense of humor. Then I thought, fine. We always wanted two. Let's do it. Thankfully I got pregnant relatively quickly. It was another shitty pregnancy. Slightly shitter than before. Birth story was different. We were prepared for the worst and got our beautifully chill daughter. Honestly, I, we, felt complete after she arrived. Mr. Chaos is such an amazing protective 3 year old brother. For age reference, I had my son a week before I turned 39 and my daughter on my 42 year. Whatever you decide will be perfect ❤️

Whenever you are ready. For me. My baby is 5 months and I'm ready for baby #2