I've been trying to find a job to go back to work. But the job market sucks right now.
You can do it! It is so hard that first day but you will slowly get into the swing of things. While I would certainly rather win the lottery and not have to work so that I could spend time with my baby and husband, being back at work isn't as bad as I thought it would be (minus the sleep deprivation). Every morning I leave my LO, I tell myself that I am lucky enough that I get to go help people - I try to focus all my energy on my patients and the day absolutely flies by. Hopefully you find your healthcare specialty as rewarding! Trust me, there were many tears my first day back, but now I smile every time one of my patients asks to see a photo of my little girl. And if you're breastfeeding and will be taking pump breaks, I find that a great opportunity to enjoy a few minutes alone (which is hard at home sometimes) without feeling guilty. Work is even a bit easier in the sense that I leave work at work - the second I get home and see her smile, I forget anything bad that happened and appreciate being with her
I appreciate all your kind words and encouragement! This just seems SO HARD! Are any of you EBF? Have you been able to continue to do so? Does baby latch fine still, or do they prefer bottles now? Do you work nights? I don't want breastfeeding to be affected. I worry more because it's 2 nights a week, and I don't want my supply to drop because my sleep will be even more messed up. So much worry!
You got this girl!! Your baby will be so proud to see you thriving in your career and providing for the fam!