Lonely

I’ve not long had my second baby, she’s a month old today and we also have a toddler so as you can imagine I’m very burnt out and tired and just exhausted. I feel o have a lot of the baby blues and maybe ppd this time around. My partner doesn’t understand no matter how I explain it to him that his life hasn’t changed in any way really he still gets to do whatever he wants when he wants to and if he doesn’t get to for whatever reason it’s ‘woh to me’, he’s left this morning with our toddler to go for breakfast with a friend of his I asked if me and our little girl could come and I was told no and just got a ‘erugh I guess you want to do something today’ all I needed was him to take me to the supermarket so I’ve sent him the shopping list instead and I’m stuck in the house again like I have been the last 5 weeks, I had such a hard night with my NB I wish he’d just say yanno I’ll cancel that and I’ll take you for breakfast or something but I feel like I’m always the last thought on everyone’s minds, and when I have the audacity to feel my feelings and just look upset or silent I get passive aggressive comments thrown at me with constant asking what’s wrong but I’m so tired of explaining my self over and over again nothing has changed since. I’m recovering from a c section so can’t really get up and do anything on my own atm