Vent/Rant - Depression/Isolation Feelings
I've been feeling trapped, isolated, depressed, all of it. My husband comes home from work and is so tried he takes a nap pretty much after hellos and a snack. Now I understand he's tired, he worked all day but damn, I'm soo sick of feeling still alone after he comes home. Unfortunately we had one of our cars break down and needs quiet a bit of work done and we're waiting till spring to get it fixed (money and time play factors). Given car issues, I'm stuck at the house 99% of the time. Even when we need small things like milk or whatever, he always has to do it. Like just a 5 min trip to the store by myself would be nice. To have other human interaction than a sleeping man or a 1.5 yo. I'm just dying to be out of this house. At least if it was warmer I could walk down to the park and not see these same 4 walls all day but it's only February still and ohio weather loves to not cooperate with what you want to do. I just don't know what to do with myself. We keep getting into fights over it and he just doesn't understand. Like he at least has co workers to talk to and leaves this house but I feel like I have nothing and I'm just dying inside. At this point I feel like I just need to shut up and not say anything when he comes home cuz it just ends in a fight and I'm sooo sick of it. With a teething toddler and my own teeth bothering be, I'm just too stressed over it all.
If he's so tired that he's falling asleep, let him rest, but you get to take over all trips to the store. It's time to call a friend, a distant relative, or join a pod. It's a stop gap measure until the car is fixed, and after that, you can resume regular human contact.