I really recognised a lot in what you wrote, Hayley. It is incredibly isolating at times, especially when you're the one constantly thinking ahead, managing triggers and being very limited in what you can do, and trying to hold it all together. You're definitely not alone.
It really is.
Update after he played on the trampoline before lunch i decided we would go to the park and feed the ducks. It's still very isolating as park was empty but seeing my lad happy has made my day a little better. Dog barked as predicted but a bit of music helped 🙂 now waiting for the other half to service 😀 lol