Lost confidence in myself

I'm not back to work yet, but I'm so worried that's going to happen with me as well.

That's how I felt. I was a rockstar when I left and such a nobody when I came, having to ask questions when I used to have all the answers. Having another baby in June and will have to go through this all over again.

I have zero confidence in myself. I have 4 kids. And after my last one I had to take an extended maternity leave. My son couldn't start daycare until the school year started and the bigger kids weren't there anymore. But over that extended time I got kinda lazy not working even thou I still had 4 kids to take care of and I ended up gaining back all of the weight from being pregnant (I weight just as much now as I did when I was pregnant) and it has messed with my confidence physically but also emotionally and mentally which has then caused me to feel terrible about myself in other ways and I know I'm good at my job but I always feel like I'm inadequate and that I'm not doing good enough. It just sucks feeling like a failure every day all because I don't like the way I look or feel.

So why we as women make more babies, even though we feel like shit afterward?? We dont use our brain at all when it comes to babies 😭we forget our self worth, and self love ❤️ maybe one baby is enough, specially with this economy;/

Thank you for posting this, I thought I was the only one. 🥺 I feel the same way, like I can never do anything right at work anymore. I used to be full of confidence and clarity, and now I feel like I am completely incompetent.