Sad. needing advice...
I'm trying my best to hold everything together, but I am falling apart.
I have an order child & this is my 2nd pregnancy. I stay with my grandma and mom & take care of my son & grandma. my grandma is more than capable of doing things for herself but she is demanding, & it's exhausting. it's like I'm taking care of 2 toddlers. ontop of working, ontop of school, ontop of the father of my children neglecting me and leaving. I have no one to turn to. no one to talk to and I feel like I'm not allowed to break down, to be human.... without looking like something is wrong with me. the person I need left me & i feel like I am drowning.
You are allowed to break down, perhaps in the intimacy of your own company, setting apart some time to be tender with yourself and letting all of your emotions flow, you can also consider lighting up a candle and writing down your thoughts, not only what you feel at the moment but also what you need to feel better(specially from yourself, this can be setting boundaries, going back to the office or whatever accommodates better for you at this moment). Please remember to make of yourself a priority during pregnancy and motherhood, because the love you feel for yourself is what you reflect and attract. Letting go of expectations or situations is part of this process too. I hope you start to feel better soon. I’m sending you a virtual hug.