Please read 😩

My iud fell out a month ago & I've never felt better. While having it I suffered from horrible anxiety & at least 3 anxiety attacks a week. It was exhausting! It effected a lot in my life especially being a parent. It made me depressed because I just wanted to be better & couldn't control it. The whole time I'm thinking its just the effects of giving birth but It wasn't. I prayed & prayed that I was to get better... I am sexually active so I do need to put on birth control soon. I really don't want to go back to how I used to be im so much happier, im such a better parent now & thats all I wanted to be 😩 While I was on my birth control I couldn't have the help I needed due to the pandemic, which made it harder. My bf doesn't like condoms he says he's "allergic". I feel like when I try to talk about it its like "well I want to have sex so you have to be put on it" I do want to have sex & I don't want to be pregnant right now but don't want to go back to how I was before. Any advice 😩?