Giving up on breastfeeding and feeling terrible
EBF mom of 9 weeks old. He latched really well from the day1. I make plenty of milk. May be a bit too much. However I never enjoyed a BF not even once. Multiple episodes of clogged duct, mastitis, milk blisters, Vasospasm, thrush. Top of all my boobs hurts all the time. So much so that it hurts to even cuddle my baby. Most of the time it’s not excruciating pain but annoying enough to feel terrible. I can sleep only on my back. If I sleep on my side I get blocked ducts. If baby cluster feed I will be so engorged and completely blocked by next morning. Last two months my whole focus was on managing my boobs. It feels like all I have is boob in my body. I don’t want to go anywhere Bcz I am so exhausted all the time. When walking I can feel every movement in my boob as they are so sensitive. In three weeks I am starting work as well. So I am thinking of stop breastfeeding. But I feel so guilty that it’s killing me. Anything you have that can help me?
I know it’s easier said than done but try not to be so hard on yourself. You have to do what works for you! Breastfeeding is hard! I’m 7 months in and the first 3 months was one of the hardest things I have ever done! I almost gave up several times and I didn’t have any issues other than feeling like a walking boob 😂 It does get easier as they get better at feeding and your boobs eventually adjust to their needs, they’ll eventually stop being as engorged and painful. There is a lot of pressure on women to breastfeed, but ultimately happy mum means happy baby. As long as their belly’s are full and they are loved that’s all that really matters xx