PPD?

To start this out I have an appointment with a therapist but it’s a month out. I have started to feel very depressed and out of contact with everything. I love my 3mo so much and am so happy to have her but i’m exhausted. i don’t want to hold her. i don’t want to wake up to feed her. i don’t want to do anything but stay in bed and be alone. i feel like such a failure and im constantly disappointing myself. i can barely keep my house clean anymore and im struggling to remember to eat or drink water. i feel so exhausted and overwhelmed and i don’t know how to handle it.