I hate to wish time away but I just want that bonding feeling. I know loads of mums probably go through the same just so hard x
I totally get it. I want that reciprocal affection from him for sure. Even if bub doesn’t show it tho, they already know ur No1.
The first 3 months are so hard, as is breastfeeding!!! You are getting through it and things will get easier- I'd say probably after the 3/4 month regression when they are out of the 4th trimester so you are probably more than half way through. I agree that my baby gets more agitated with me too, I think it's often because of you smelling of milk. It's also ok to struggle, it's so hard especially as a FTM when your identity has just completely changed too. Best of luck and reach out for a chat if that'll help!
I don’t know if it’s a comfort, but my boy is way more cranky and unsettled when I’m around to when he’s being cuddled by others and I’ve figured out it’s he can smell my milk and gets agitated that he can’t get at it. My baby boys first proper smile happened yesterday, to someone else. It’s tough. I think we just need to hang in a month or so more when they can show their affection more and I’m sure we will find we’re still baby’s favourite person