Ppd

I have a similar feeling too.. I have depression in general where I wouldn’t eat at all for a meal like dinner and I would just force myself to sleep and being resistant from taking depression medication but now with my 5 weeks old baby boy, I started to get more attentive to my son now that I’ve recovered a lot but I still have here and there times of loneliness, sadness, and depression but it’s not everyday so that’s a good thing for me.. since my beginning of my depression journey to now really had a big difference in my life.. I mean my mother instincts just kick in and I would eat fast enough just to get back to my son since he needs me sometimes and also sometimes my boyfriend needs to do stuff so I work with him during the day and he takes mostly nights till 4-5AM

@Justine I’m glad to hear it’s getting better for you ❤️ I hope the same happens for me in the next few weeks and that taking my medication will help

About my depression medication, my emotions are all over the place meaning I would be happy and the next I be depressed or crying since I had negative thoughts most of the time.. my boyfriend give me the time at night to deep sleep within myself and wake up around 4-5AM depending on my son’s feeding times.. me and my bf take turns but the same feeling you have about your fiancé going back to work is the same thing I’m currently thinking still till this 5th week! I can’t get it out of my head because what if I get too burnt out , etc.. most of the time I just want to bond with my baby boy but my sister in laws be working so I figured one of them can take care during most of the day whenever I’m burnt out

I know not a lot of new moms or moms in general have a village so I didn’t mean to offend you about that

@Tamara yep! Thank you so much tho from mother to mother. I’m a first time mom to be honest and I had bad times like no patience in the first few weeks with my baby boy and I get stressed out easily.. I mean the sleeping for our babies will get better over time and now it’s been here and there but sometimes I felt like he’s getting the hang of sleeping schedule … everything at the beginning is temporary tbh as they grow bigger and older. Sometimes when our babies are stressing us out, know that their the ones who’s stressed out and hurt (my bb with constipation) and their only communication is by crying

@Tamara I really want to let you know what I’ve experienced with my baby boy and depression

@Tamara But I promise you it’s temporary and it’ll get better really soon! ❤️❤️

And to be honest I didn’t take my depression medications but I’m learning how to manage it myself like music to my ears wearing my earbuds

Do you have anyone to help take care of you? Having a baby is hard work and moms need support too

The first two weeks were the worst for me! I felt the exact same. Never had been more depleted in my life. This happens, I’m now 2 months out and doing much better. It’s such an adjustment but it gets better honey. A few things that helped me- Having a bouncer will help with little one when you need to take a shower and clear your head, getting nutrition shakes helps as you get through not wanting to eat much, and skin to skin, snuggles with baby, finding a new show to watch. As you adjust it gets better, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I know it’s hard.

@Justine I agree once they start growing sleep will come! Just trying to be patient and tough through it. The last couple days have been better mental health wise. I hope you’re doing well too!