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i understand u fully girl!

Why was it so depressing? You have to talk to him or nothing will change

Feel free to vent to me 💜 I’ve been there just because of the rollercoaster of emotions following birth and postpartum.

Don't have sex again unless you want to, otherwise your body is learning to not trust.

feel free to message me!!🥺🤍 it helps to talk luv.

I feel the same way, what’s causing this? Is there something he has done in the past that makes you feel this way?

Thank you so much everyone. I am a lot better.

@Kike Talking hasn't really helped. I have tried a few times.

@Bethany This is deep, Bethany. I have not cum in ages!!!! I think my body has wholly disengaged. I now cum only when I am alone and use my vibrator.

@Tracy Well, he has cheated. I understand it might not be news, but I felt deeply hurt. He denied it as many times as I found evidence. I'm more hurt because I think it is a continuous act. Even if he is not sleeping with them, the attention, the treatment and the conversations I have seen make me so sad and hurt. I thought that such intimacy could only be shared between us. He tries to provide for us, but as a woman, I want more. I sometimes wish I didn't know anything for my peace. It has been messing with my brain, and even though he does everything to make sure I don't find more things (e.g. Blocked me on all SM, locks things, phone on silence or face down, switches off the Nanny cam when at home etc), he does not rub it on my face. It is just painful. I learned most married men have meaningless sex with girls; I still can't bear the thought.

Um actually no, most married men don't cheat. EVER, let alone more than once. It just means the guys you are hearing about? Yeah they're just jerks. Most married men treasure sex with their wives and don't hide anything from them. If they're feeling tempted to be interested in another woman? They confess to their spouse and ask for advice getting out of the conundrum. It never crossed their minds to be unfaithful. Please get a therapist!