Has Miscarriage changed me forever?

I guess it can be to do with the fact you’ve miscarried twice and are now five months pregnant there’s a lot of hormones going through your body and pregnancy isn’t easy on our anger/sadness and any kind of emotion is kinda like heightened x

Hi, I found this. I had a chemical July 2023 but ended up pregnant the same month, I have a 7 month old now! But I ended up pregnant 4 months pp and ended up losing the baby at 8-10 weeks. Had to do medical management. It’s been 2 months since, we’re trying again this month I’ve been tracking, but I can’t help but feel this massive rage and I wanna kill everyone whose pregnant (I won’t kill you don’t worry🤣) I think it’s just a trauma feeling tbh x

@Courtney Davis is the 7 month old the one you got pregnant with the same month I wanna try again as soon as possible but it’s not looking like this bleeding is even a quarter of my miscarriage so feeling like I’m gonna have to wait atleast until next month x

Yes she is the one I got pregnant with in the same month! Honestly it seemed like my bleeding would never stop with my miscarriage this time but I stopped bleeding in about 10 days. The first 2-3 days were so heavy! Honestly, if your ready to try again (you only have 2% of miscarriage back to back) then try again as soon as your done bleeding. I feel like it doesn’t help me grieve but it helps me mentally tbh. Which to some people don’t make sense. I hate waiting and I feel like if I don’t get pregnant this month I just can’t enjoy life x

@Courtney Davis oh my God that’s exactly how I feel if I don’t get pregnant in like this month or next month I feel like my life is just gonna be a disaster because I’m so devastated! Your comment gives me so much hope, I’ve got pregnant with this miscarriage in the first two weeks of trying got to 8 weeks and miscarried. So hopefully once i stop bleeding I can get pregnant again, so my life can not be better because I think ill still be so nervous with what happened but I can not feel so empty and crying my eyes out every damn second, thankyou I don’t feel as alone anymore ;) x

@Larissa I’ve not met anyone who feels the same as me, so tbh it makes me feel better in a way! I’ve only just ovulated tomorrow I’m 1dpo so it’s gonna be ages, the next week is gonna take forever! Oh really, well it should be unlucky that it will happen again let’s hope for you! :( but you can go to reoccurring miscarriage if at the worst it does happen again! But fingers crossed it doesn’t! Honestly, having a 5-6 month old when my miscarriage happened made me feel horrible because as much as she was my rainbow baby too, I couldn’t be as good mum as I should’ve been around that time for her. Makes me feel so guilty :(! I hope so, I feel empty too, not sure how I’m gonna feel/cope being pregnant again though. But I’m getting ahead of myself and researching what my due date would be to be disappointed. What’s more annoying for me is my stepdads daughter whose only just turned 18 had 3 terminations in the space of 2 years because she was careless and now is pregnant again with a boy

She’s known for less than a year. I hate it. I’m so angry over it! X

Also, If you want to message me at any point you’re welcome too! X

@Courtney Davis omg real though I have a one year old and the past few days since my miscarriage I’ve been a mess luckily her step dad has been the best to him and me letting me take some much needed mornings off doing my tea and just being the best I feel bad because I’ve barely spent any time with him but the way my moods been he’s better off for now until I can be the upmost best mom again. Gotta let ourselves have time to heal and be the best mother again to our children, anyways my sister also had two abortions in the space of a few months before getting pregnant with her son and deciding to keep it, she was using it as a form as contraception which I do not agree with because her partner would wear a condom and she couldn’t have the pill due to gallbladder stones or something that really annoyed me too your not alone x

@Courtney Davis ofc I will message you now x

@Larissa aw that’s good!! I’m glad it’s kind of worked out for your little boy! It’s horrible when you can’t feel like the best version of yourself for them! Yeah I completely get that, it sucks but sometimes you can’t let them see you how you are! :( oh wow, that’s really crazy how similar our things are! Tbh though, giving birth set my gallstones off badly, had it mild before I gave birth for around 10 or so years and I had my gallbladder out 5 weeks pp as it was affecting my pancreas and irritating it but I’ve still been on the pill prior. That sounds kind of like an excuse I’d be pissed when you’re trying to get pregnant and she’s going through these terminations😬 bless you. X

@Larissa yay

@Courtney Davis thankyou and yeah it’s annoying but what can you do lol and so crazy we’re going through such similar situations makes your realised your not alone x

@Larissa most definitely!! X