Postpartum depression
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Hi there! What helped me was eating nutritiously and take prenatal with vit D. moving/walking, this will increase the good hormones for your brain. I would literally walk/pace in my kitchen and bedroom. If you can coach your mind to not dwell on the birth but rather write it out, talk to another trusted mom or try therapy. It is a process, not a sprint
You're not a bad mom. I struggled for about several months after my baby was born. I didn't feel a bond or really a deep connection at first, I felt terrible and would cry because my husband treated her like the world and would hold and bond with her 24/7 while I basically only did what she physically needed. It made me feel like the worst parent ever. But She's 1 year old now, and she is my world. She calls for me whenever she wakes up, she's upset or gets hurt. It hurts my husbands feelings sometimes 😂 I honestly feel just having a baby is also a traumatic event because your world changes so fast without any kind of transition, and you're thrown in the midst of keeping a baby alive while trying to process everything that just happened and you're still trying to process and heal with how traumatic the birthing event was and that's a lot on its own. If you need to, feel free to message me.
Reach out to perinatal mental health team by self referral and they're amazing at supporting people going through this. Sorry to hear you're feeling like this and hope it gets better soon
Literally going thru the exact same thing its so damn hard. Almost at my breaking point.