Not sure where you’re at, but my sister has bipolar and borderline personality disorder and every time she admits herself to the hospital, they do a 48 hour hold and then release her to someone
If you check in voluntarily you stay for around 48-72 hours and then get the choice of staying for further treatment or checking out & being released to someone (: Holding onto ice cubes for as long as you can might be helpful to push through the urges
988 you can call or text. I admitted myself few years back. I was there 2 or 3 nights. I know how hard it is to leave the kids. At the very least you can talk to someone.
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I'm unmedicated for bipolar disorder as well. Shit's rough sometimes. What kind of episode are you having? How do they generally play out for you? What kind of support do you have?