Depression

Hi ladies, For the past few months i have been feeling really down and upset and also angry. My 10 month old i feel is really stressing me out and irritating me. Before i was pregnant I suffered from depression and for years i have been taking medication for personality disorder but i just feel really crap. Sometimes when i am at home with just me and my baby i think maybe i could take her to the hospital and just leave her there or maybe when my partner is 10 minutes away from home i could leave the baby at home and just run off and not come back. Not only this sometimes i feel like I don’t want the baby to exist because i have had enough. I would never hurt her and never will but i worry because i have thoughts of it - i thought once when i was at the top of the stairs what would happen if she just fell out of my arms. I don’t know what to do, i want to go to the doctors but i’m scared they will take my baby away but i know i need help. Is this postnatal depression? I love my daughter so much and when she smiles at me i think i am the luckiest person alive but i dont like the way i am feeling and I don’t know what to do.
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Hi lovely, this is postnatal depression. If you’re having thoughts of the things you have mentioned. I had this as well but slowly overcome it on my own. They won’t take your baby from you but maybe speak to a GP about how you’re feeling. Also try and get out everyday even just for a walk it helps feeling overwhelmed. Always here for a chat Xxx

I had PPD right after I had my daughter and I’m experiencing it again at 10 months PP. it’s a struggle ! I recommend talking to a doctor. I know medication helped me a lot.

@Courtney Thank you, that means alot. I am just worried. I told my mum and she said make sure you don’t tell them that she makes you angry or stresses you out jusy say that she makes you sad

Yeah you never know these days! X

@Kels What are you doing about it now? What medication did they give you? When i was pregnant they changed me from Prozac to Sertraline - thats been no help

I’m not taking any at the moment. I just realized last night when my boyfriend asked if I was depressed. That I actually think I am. But I know from the past meditation really helps. Especially when it’s bad. I can’t remember what I was on but I’m sure you can go back on what you took before you were pregnant if that’s what worked better for you. Just remember you will feel better it will just take time. Talk to your partner and let him know how you’re feeling. Support is important. You got this mama! We are warriors truly! 💪🏼

Feel free to message me if you need. ❤️

Thank you so much

These feelings are normal after birth. I’ve been struggling with postpartum anxiety ever since my daughter was born and she is going on 4. My dr said postpartum can last until your child is 6. When my daughter was a baby I would have mental breakdowns. I was always home alone with her. I would literally go into my closet and cry. It hasn’t been that bad in awhile but today I went into the bathroom and just cried because sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed always being home alone with her. My husband works full time. I’ve learned what helps me is getting fresh air. Sometimes it’s a struggle to get up and get ready to walk out the door but sometimes I force myself and I NEVER regret it. It really takes a village to raise a baby , it is not normal for a mother to always be home alone with baby. Do you have a support group? Parents? Friends that can come by and help you? I highly suggest getting fresh air everyday. Even just a small walk outside and let your OB know what’s going on.

Girl I had the same thing - postpartum depression is SERIOUS. I got on antidepressants to balance out my hormones and brain chemicals. I feel amazing and like the mother I was meant to be. Before I couldn't be bothered to try and be an amazing mom but now I have all the motivation in the world and life is beautiful without anxiety and depression. I take Zoloft that worked for me, but talk to your doctor about it

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