Losing myself

Hey y’all. I’m currently 8 weeks postpartum and i’ve been struggling a little bit. I guess i’m still having kind of a hard time adjusting to life with a baby. And don’t get me wrong I would to ANYTHING for him and I love him more than i’ve ever loved anything 🩵 but sometimes I miss who I was before i had my son. I love to do all kinds of art, namely painting and sculpting. I’ve been trying to do my hobbies after the baby goes to bed but usually by that point I just want to sit down or clean up to get ready for the next day. I think I just miss the freedom of being able to do what I love doing. I’m also a very independent person and have always been and enjoy my alone time, so it’s been a struggle adjusting to always being with the baby and not really ever getting a break. But then I feel like a horrible mom for even having these thoughts and feelings ☹️ I guess recently i’ve just been down, missing what I used to kind of take for granted. And I know he’ll get older and it’ll get easier, but for now every time I look at all my art stuff i can’t help but feel a little bit sad. And maybe this is just my dumb hormones talking because he’s still a newborn and this week has been tough, but if any of you do or have ever felt this way, it would be really nice to know i’m not alone 🩵