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Please don’t judge me

I’ve never felt more lonely in my entire life than when I became a mom. All my life I felt like I was surrounded by love and so many people around me, friends and family. Maybe it was because I never needed something from anyone. The way I was abandoned when I was at my lowest has left a permanent scar in my heart. The way people were shocked to hear I had PPD because in pictures I always seemed so happy. Hearing “why didn’t you just call me?” After telling them I how I felt. When I told my dad I felt depressed his words were “stop feeling like that. You have a beautiful baby.” When I told my mom she said, “yep. Happens to us all. You’ll be okay.” So I turned to my sisters. Their responses went from call me and I’ll go help with the baby, to, I can’t maybe next week? Thinking about all the things I wanted to do for my baby but didn’t get to because we didn’t have any money hurts me more than anyone will know. Six months into motherhood I thought I was “cured” from the monster that is postpartum depression. I was wrong. I’ve tried to suppress this feeling of deep sadness but it’s only resulted in anger and fits of rage. Last night I slapped myself in the face over and over as hard as I could because I couldn’t get the baby to stay asleep in the bassinet. I only stopped hitting myself because I was scared my boyfriend would hear me. I’m too much of a coward to take my own life. I think about my boyfriend finding me and I just can’t do that to him. I think about my baby not having a mother growing up. Maybe she’ll be okay. But what if she’s not. Posting on this platform has been my safe space. All of you make me feel less alone.

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When I became a mom with my first I felt extremely lonely as well. Your entire life changes and no one can prepare you for it. I’m sorry you’re going through this, I’ve lost a lot of people in my life as well. Have you talked to your OB/GYN about your postpartum depression. Several woman need medication or even just a therapist to talk to. Reach out to them and they can help. I’m sorry you feel this way, please get some medical advice 🩷

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Hey mama, no judgement here, we've all been there. If you want to talk/vent, please feel free to dm. I would also suggest to please let your boyfriend know what you're going through. Maybe mom, dad, sisters don't understand what you're going through but he might! Just be very strong for your baby and yourself and please message if you want to talk. There is light at the end of the tunnel, I promise!

I did not EVER expect certain people to not be there for me postpartum. It literally shook me to my core and definitely left a permanent scar in my heart. I know there isn’t anything we could do in regards to your family but please know you are not alone!! So so so many people feel this way it’s insane I NEVER thought motherhood was like this is actually crazy to me. But you’re doing the absolute best please be kind to yourself ❤️ I know it’s so hard but you gave birth to a healthy baby you’re literally doing Gods work don’t ever minimize yourself especially in such a vulnerable time. Please stay around to be able to help your baby girl raise her babies and you be there for her 🫶 sometimes people don’t know better, speaking from experience I had a best friend become a mom after 10 years of friendship and now that I’m a mom I literally want to go back and be more supportive but I had nooooo idea. I’m always here if you need just someone to make you feel normal or like you’re not alone!

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