I hate my life

I hate my life after ive had a baby. I hate my fat body. I hate that fat ugly tired face in the mirror. I hate not getting enough sleep. Not having time for myself. Not seeing my friends. Having no energy for anything. I hate being punched, scratched, screamed at, poked, hair torn off my head all on a daily basis. I hate the scars, stretchmarks and illness pregnancy left on me. I hate the umblical hernias, hemmorroids, nipple cracks, breast ache, back pain, stomachache from the csection scar, headache and migranes that parenthood rewarded me with. But most of all i hate that my life is never going to be the same again. I sacrificed so much for having this child and i just hate motherhood. I dont understand how women find this enjoyable and why has noone told me this is going to be so terrible. I dont want this life. I cant live like this. Doing a hundred things a day to please a little being that is never having enough, screaming all the time, kicking and slapping me in the face instead. I had a great life before having kids. Why just why have i decided to ruin it like that!

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With the way you are feeling I would speak to somebody maybe your doctor/GP

Everyone handles this differently, I think you need to take and think of a positive for each day. Do you have hobbies? I find doing something small for myself each day helps. I can’t honestly say I feel what you have put here, but motherhood does come with a odd day here or there that’s difficult, if your feeling like this a lot maybe reach out to doctors and see if you can get referred for some help, or have someone have your baby whilst you have a time out x

How old is your child?

I just want to hug you . I think you need a big hug.

I’m so sorry your feeling like this

@Abbey For me over 90% of days has been difficult. I have so little quality sleep to have energy left for anything... I had lots of hobbies and my own business which i sacrificed for being a full time mom. I barely done one hobby once in the whole 10 months of being a parent. I dont even get a minute to Sh*t in the bathroom in peace most days, leave alone doing things i enjoy (or used to enjoy)...

@Brittany 10 months.

@Sarah Only thing they sugested was antidepressants. Which ive had before over 10 years ago. Not like they helped much then. I doubt they will help when my biggest issue is not getting even my basic needs met (worst of all not having enough sleep consecutively for the whole 10 months)

Hey, how olds your little one? I must say, how your feeling is quite normal - just many of us never admit it and I think if parents did we would be better prepared in a way in what to expect. The first 4 or so weeks for me was sooo rough and now she’s 3 months it’s still hard but it does get better. Lots of people told me that and I didn’t believe them. Do you have a support network to help? If in uk try visiting this website hubofhope.co.uk to see if any support help available for you. I’m sorry you feel like this and I do hope it gets better for you xx

Do you have a partner? Family? Support? This sounds a lot like PPD. I am so sorry you’re going through this.

Can you not send your child to nursery if they are 10 months? It would give you a break and they would have a good time at nursery.

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