Not sure how much longer I can go on

I am in a completely dead end relationship that I just can’t seem to leave. I am so very severely unwell mentally and I don’t get what I give out emotionally. I can’t leave the house anymore because of agoraphobia. For the past month or so I’m suffering with such severe migraines to the point where I can’t function as normal, therefore I feel like the worst mother in the world to my beautiful little boy. I keep letting my room get a mess so it’s so much harder to do. I’ve let myself go so much and Ive put on so much weight. I’ve stopped caring about myself and I’ve just cut a massive piece of matted hair from my head and I am stupidly feeling sorry for myself as I’ve told my mum that I’m struggling to get it out of my head and she didn’t seem at all bothered, although it’s my own fault. I am so alone in this world and I do wonder how much longer I can last. I feel like I can’t function like everyone else and I hate it and I hate myself.

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You got this! Do it for your baby boy!

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way you're definitely not alone. It can be really hard to keep everything tothether as a mom and manager of a household. You have to give yourself a bit of grace while things fall apart and come together again. And they will come together again eventually you just have to find your footing. What honestly helped me the most when I was feeling like this was getting on an SSRI. It helped me so much and I highly recommend speaking to someone who can help you because you're worth it. And it's worth it for your bub. You deserve to feel better. I know in the US there's alot of telehealth services so you don't even have to leave the house to get the help you need.

Please seek professional help for your mood. Your baby will thank you x

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Thank you guys, I’m on an SSRI and it’s not doing what it’s meant to and if anything I’m a lot worse. I have PMDD and I am so exhausted of being like this every month. My GP is not helpful by any means and there’s only so much everyone can do so I’m bottling it atm. At my wits end

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