Total loss of identity

Motherhood has completely taken my identity. I used to be obsessed with makeup, playing around with makeup, always having some sort of makeup on and I loved it. I used to have super long hair, almost down to my butt. But due to lack of time, I don't play with makeup anymore. And honestly, I can't stand how I look even when I put makeup on because my skin went to shit during both my pregnancies. I cut my hair while I was pregnant with my second and I've never regretted anything more, my hair has gone to shit since then. For unknown reasons, I keep shedding like crazy for almost a year now. I've lost over half my hair volume and have a very thin almost bald spot in the back of my head. My confidence is literally shit. All I literally had that made me feel good about myself was makeup and my hair. I want to get some sort of extensions, but they're just so expensive it's insane. I thought i hated myself before, but i hate myself more than ever. I wish I never had to be seen again, but unfortunately, I can't just stay in my bed forever. I love my kids more than life itself but I honestly just wish I had my identity back from before. I wish I had what little prettiness I had back.