Suffer?? Or be the bad guy?!

I did alot for my child to have a relationship with the dad. But as time goes on I wonder if I’d be so wrong if I blocked him and my child just went on in life dadless. He’s a good dad but he treats me terribly and offers no physical child care. If I ghost, he won’t fight to be in child’s life, take me to court, etc. He’ll be sad but relieved. Sometimes I want him to just die so I don’t have to feel guilty. I made a bad decision having my child and I’m scared and embarrassed to do it alone, but to be trapped in this for the rest of my life seems insane and unbearable. I want my child to have their dad but at what cost? I’m emotionally exhausted. I don’t want to see his face ever again I have violent and evil thoughts

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I used to feel the same in literally feeling like it was easier for one of us to be dead than co paren the way we were. He enjoys being in her life but it’s more of a show to others. We did mediation to make a plan set on stone and if it’s broken by either of us we can take the other to court for full custody. Have u tried that? Being a single parent isn’t embarrassing and I’m sure you don’t really feel like it was a mistake having ur baby and becoming a mama. It sounds a lot like this situation is so stressful it is causing some sort of post partum depression, rage etc… And I wish I could tell you it gets better and easier because it does truly but I know you have to go through the pain to realise that and words from a stranger online don’t mean much! It ain’t worth emotionally exhausting yourself maybe just take a few weeks away from the situation and re added when ur ready to, if he doesn’t care it won’t be an issue. I hope your okay mama

There are many times I feel this way about my ex, our daughter is 8, and I fought so hard to maintain their relationship and I really wish I hadn't as I honestly feel that he would have naturally just slipped into the background. I ended up speaking with a solicitor just before Christmas because of the emotional turmoil both myself and my daughter was in when he decided he wanted to take her for the whole of the Christmas period, (he has never had her more than over night if he turns up) And the advice I was given was keep doing what your doing, if you don't feel like it is in her best interests to go then don't send her if he actually has a problem with it he will take you to court, but explicitly said I do not need to take him unless I wanted to remove his contact all together x

I feel the same. Last night he came by and seen her and she didn't even seem that interested this time. Which is way different than last time where she hugged him! It's sad to watch. Sometimes I wonder or most times actually. If this is the right decision

Im in the exact same boat. & we have 2. The second one happened when we weren’t together so he’s extremely careless when it comes to her. Personally I just give him shit about it but then leave him be. His own conscience will speak to him, if he has one. It sucks & it hurts but do what’s best for you. & as long as baby has you, be strong. If you need anything I’m here to talk💕

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