I strongly dislike my support system and those around me

Dislike is mildly putting it.Barely a week post partum. 14th Jan. and i have already been body shamed, told my belly still looks big. Are there still babies in them? Being scolded for not being motherly enough/ having instant motherly instincts, even though this is my first and rainbow baby, personal space invaded, personal items used. I feel like I could have been much happier without a support system that feels like a hell system. Baby doesn’t latch well sometimes. I feel like he doesn’t even like me sometimes. I’m glad i had my baby and would do anything to be his mother but right now, I just feel like drowning and running away to somewhere where I wouldn’t be seen but still be happy with my baby. I feel so angry, helpless and alone. Not enough to off myself but yh. I’m tired.