It helps to let it out

I’m sorry u feel this way I understand it tho. I’ve written a few things like this too

How can you hurt me? 
And feel nothing at all 
And fail on your promise 
To catch me when I fall? 
Does it make you feel better? 
When you call me bad names 
Does it boost your ego? 
So you don’t feel no pain? 
I was always so proud 
To be your wife 
And had all these dreams with you 
Of a wonderful life 
But when you broke your promise
You took a piece of my heart 
And left me feeling like I’m nothing at all
We're over, we're done 
You no longer care 
You made your decision 
I guess it’s fair
I shut down and turned off 
Every feeling i had 
And left me with regrets 
And memories we had 
I’ve tried and tried 
I kept saying were through 
It makes me wonder 
Did I ever matter to you? 
How can you hurt someone who
You promised to always love 
And act like it doesn’t bother you 
When it’s obvious it does 
But you’ve made this choice 
And it didnt matter that I’m blue Just know this time I’m done I’m through

I have soo many some r truly depressing

Vanessa I can’t tell you in enough words about how much I relate to your words. I am empty and numb yet within I am crying.