Feeling sad

To give some background ever since I had my daughter 18 almost 19 months ago she was never really a cuddler. She has mostly been very independent. It wasn’t until she turned a year old she started coming over to her dad and I to cuddle for a few and for the last couple months she will give hugs if we ask or just at random. My husband and I are with her 24/7. We live 2 hours from family and she doesn’t go to daycare. Recently she has been in speech therapy and she comes to the house once a week. I would say the last week or more my daughter has just stopped wanting hugs from me. Doesn’t come to me when asked (which she used to do) and I just get this feeling like it’s me. She will still go to my husband (but mind you I am the one that does the most reprimanding, I give her baths, I feed her, I dress and change her) so most of her time is with me. He occasionally plays with her and is in the living room with her while I work. Anyway….i don’t know if my daughter has stopped loving me and it makes me sad. Makes me sink back into my PPD/PPA like I felt when I first had her. I’m sure she loves me but when the speech therapist came yesterday we were coming down the stairs and she lit up when she saw her. Went right over to her for a hug and grabbed her hand to lead her to the living room. When I asked for her to come to me so I could put her socks on she just looked at me and didn’t even bother with me. I’m sure I’m over reacting but it’s hard when I wanted a little girl my whole life, I wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remember and I guess I had envisioned I would have a baby that would want me. But it seems like the opposite. She has always just wanted to be independent 😓😭 Ok rant over