PPD

Your baby is still very young! Don’t beat yourself up. Your feelings are still very valid, I’Ve been where you are. Have you talked to your doctor about this? Having a young child is so hard I struggled as well.. My son is four now and he is so much fun. Just because you are struggling, doesn’t mean you don’t love your baby and wouldn’t do anything for your baby. you are allowed to feel this way. Whoever told you that should not be in your life. That’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard. you can’t help postpartum depression you created a life. Raising a child is HARD!! My son had feeding issues and was a preemie. He fought every time I fed him. I felt like a complete failure, but we made it! He just would cry almost every time I fed him. At four months, we found out he was tongue to lip tight and cheek tied. Then we had to get him surgery and then he had PTSD from the pain. It was horrible. So we just struggled for like a year. No one knows what anyone goes though.

So you are doing amazing! If you need someone to talk to without judgment you can message me! ❤️

@Christi thank you so much, that must of have been so hard for you. Everyone has a battle they are trying to get through. I love my son so much and I can't wait to see each stage of raising him, but right now I'm just stuck in this cycle of sleep deprivation and his feeding being off. I have been to GP, Health Visitors and also been messaging the health visitors every week for months and they just tell me his fine as his weight is fine. I also have the most wildest thoughts, I was never like this before. I do need to make the effort of calling the doctors for a referral for therapy but I'm so scared they will think I'm a terrible mum and take my son away from me.

You’re so welcome! Please don’t think that! My son’s pediatrician missed it, and lactation Consultant missed it. We went to a specialist for him. And that’s when we finally got answers! Don’t be afraid to fight for your baby!! Finding tongue, ties lip, ties, and cheek ties can be very tricky. His pediatrician actually apologized to me and I wasn’t upset with him at all. He’s a wonderful pediatrician. Does your baby make loud sucking noises when he drinks or clucking noises?

My mom’s friend’s grandson was not diagnosed with a severe tongue tie until he was four and he had speech problems and could not even lick a popsicle and everybody told them he was fine.

Please speak to your doctor! They can help

You are not alone, I promise. Please reach out to your gp so that they can help support you. I’ve had my antidepressants put up since having my baby because I was really struggling. There is absolutely no shame in feeling the way you do and you will 100% not lose your baby because you feel like this. If you want to message me and talk, I’m here xx

@Christi I haven't noticed a clucking sound. He has always been a combi fed baby as he wouldn't latch on during the first couple of days. He was completely fine until around 4/5months and that's when I was chasing the doctors and health visitors and just got told the usual if he has wet nappies and progressing on his percentile of weight it's fine 😔 he has taken well to solids/purees though.