Does anyone feel like they don’t truly belong anywhere? I’m not good at short stories so I’m sorry if I’m rambling.

I know this post won’t resonate with a lot of people but even if it does for a few maybe it’ll help me feel better. I’ve always felt like I don’t belong. I am mixed race and grew up in private Christian schools with primarily white students. I had friends but always felt like I was different. Fast forward to middle school and my parents let me transfer to public. I was so out of the loop extremely awkward didn’t dress how everyone else did because I was used to wearing uniforms. My hair was super long and curly/frizzy. I had bad acne and got bullied. I then went into high school going back to private Christian schools and it was the same story. Got bullied and called the N word. Transferred back to public and then all the minorities thought I was under the impression I was too good for my own race because of the way I spoke and dressed and had my hair. Fast forward to adulthood things got better because I was out of the school bubble. I had friends but I always felt like I was trying to squeeze myself into the group somehow and it didn’t feel right. Fast forward to now I’m a SAHM with three kids practically no friends . I don’t leave the house. My partner is basically my only friend and I just feel like I don’t have a support group anywhere and it’s lonely. Some days it gets to me more than others. I never thought being 30 years old I would feel like this I’m just wondering if anyone else feels the same way. I’ve tried to talk through this with a therapist but it seems like it just doesn’t help. And therapy doesn’t help me in general.