For me, it is anxiety and medicine and talking it through with someone who actually understands what anxiety feels like.
I don't have any advice, just that I had horrible PPA with my first and felt like I'd never get better. But I did. I don't really know when it happened, but it was like one day I just realized how much more normal I felt. You are doing a great job, don't forget that. And you will get through this...it does get better!
If you're in the states, do you have insurance? Therapy and getting back into deep breathing exercises and lifting helped me a ton with PPA.
Get the book called At Last A Life by Paul David x
Maybe reflect on the times you thought that you were doing something wrong in the past, and then think, did anything bad happen? Was it actually wrong? Did things go well? Usually when we think about things we thought were bad we realise they weren’t really as bad as we thought. I hope this makes sense? X