Separation anxiety.

I'm not just talking about my baby girl.... it's me! I have such intense separation anxiety! If I can't see her or if someone takes her out of the room I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack. I know it's common and I know many other mums also feel this and struggle with this, I just never thought I would. I don't like the idea of anyone else looking after her, she has a lovely routine in place that word and when she's out of her routine she becomes fussy. I just know people won't follow the routine, or if I ask people not to get her certain foods/drink they'll go against it and say oh she's just trying it. She's breast fed (also having food through the day) so I know the attachment is there. I just feel like people are always pressuring me to go spend time away from her and leave her with someone and go out for the day... first of all... I don't want to! I don't have a need to.... and secondly she is breastfeeding on demand. I don't want to leave her for extended periods... and again I know someone will say "express into a bottle" and I hate hearing that because that's all my mother in law has said to me from day one.... I don't want to. It's a simple as that. I do have to return to work eventually. I know I'm going to struggle so much. I guess I'm just venting and wondering if anyone else is feeling the same??? I didn't think I would ever be this completely attached.