Help

What would you say is my problem here? When my baby laughs I get sad because I don’t belive he’s laughing at me because I feel like he’s sad with me. I feel like he deserves so much more and I feel sad that he laughs at me because I don’t belive he should be? I know factually my baby rn loves me (he’s 5 months) but in my head I think he must be ashamed that I’m his mother? I’m unsure if this is PPD as I’m not depressed everyday and I love being a mom! I also don’t have a bonding issue with him, I love him with my whole heart and I’d do anything for him so I’m unsure what the actual cause of my problem is?